Christmas can be lonely...

Christmas was great...of course I only was able to visit for 2 hours and then off to work I went. A resident passed away...very sad:( I am going to miss that lady...2nd resident in one week. I guess Christmas is hard on the older folks. It's a wonderful time of year, but it can also be the lonliest time of year also. Got home from work, did some crying and then went to bed. I know that they are better off, no more suffering. I have to look at it that way. They're with God. I am thankful that I do have my family around:) Very blessed:)

Having hope

I am back on the search for someone to share my life with. I don't know if I should be searching, but I find it gets my hopes up that I will find my guy:) So, I've decided to go back on the online dating stuff again. Maybe I'll meet someone whom I can share the same hopes and dreams with. Dating...that word is scary to me. Meeting people again and getting rejected...being rejected, the scariest thing in the world. But, we all have to face our fears, that's the only way to get rid of them.
God knows who is out there for me, I need to be patient. I can't keep having these bouts of tears that I keep having, because I am so lonely.

Today, I am having trouble enjoying being single, watching people holding hands and being all googly eyed at each other...I want that. Patience I tell myself, patience. He is out there somewhere and until then, I need to focus on my life by myself. I need to do this...Be happy for the people that are getting engaged, having children, falling in love:) B/c one day I hope to be at that place in my life and I would like for people to be happy for me when that day comes. God will provide:)

Trying to enjoy my life as a single woman...

Today, another day of work. Every day is different for me, with my thoughts on the single life. Today I'm enjoying it. It changes often, sometimes in one day I'll have changed my mind at least 12 times about if I enjoy being single or not.
The other night, holding my niece in my arms I had thoughts of wanting to meet the man I'm supposed to marry and having children. My niece just warms my heart so much, even when she's not having the best day.